Now, at this point I reach my school years!YAY! In my younger years, say, the better part of elementary and a while of middle school, I was DETERMINED not to fall into any female stereotypes. I was pretty tomboyish, and still sort of am. I think this came, overall, from me never really... getting along with my female peers at that age. I never really had a female friend until, gosh, the fourth or fifth grade? I guess I was kind of weird at my age. I remembered loving reptiles and bugs, and videogames, and art, oh, and I had a huge love of dragons as well haha.
Anyways, there was a whole of one major event here, and that was, well, two things actually, was the amazing wow experience of picking up an instrument and joining my school's band, and the radical entering of my evil ex-stepmother into me and my remaining family's life. Now, music, right? I had always sort of liked it, and, when I heard that my elementary's school band needed more members, I was absolutely ECSTASTIIC to join. I picked up the flute as my primary instrument at the ripe age of nine years old. And, I guess aparently at my age, I was quite good at it. My band director, at that time before he retired, absolutely GLAZED me to the point where this inadvertently has caused other people in my section to quit playing the flute, which I sort of feel guilty about to this day, even if it wasn't my fault neccessarily. I would also later come to find out that band director was nationally renowned, which is crazy. Anyways, I loved it. I loved band, I loved music, my band director gave a ten year old awesome connections in the music scene, life was GOOD. Naturally this would shape my entire rest of my life ;p
This was about the time that my father met my ex-stepmother. She was very kind at first, but, I guess it was sort of a facade. There was always some red flags. We all moved into a rented house together in, again, eastern pennsylvania. My older sister at this time, M, was just entering the seventh grade, and was experiencing some... issues. She started skipping school, hanging out with the wrong crowds, and overall doing some less than ideal things. She ended up voluntarily leaving our household and moving to her biological's mother's house (who in herself is not a good influence) for the next... until this point. She still lives mostly with that side of her family. Anyways.
Order of events
- I get born to an alchoholic mother, get seperated from said mother, enter public school
- I have no real friends, except, actually, forgot to mention, I meet some long lasting friends, LD,GD, and EE.
- My father meets my stepmother at the time, my sister gets into some bad stuff, moves out.
OKAY! So, here's where we enter middle school! Two new sisters get born, both obviously younger than I. Unfortunately, this is when my stepmother, K, started really taking a dip. She got very, very absuive toward everyone in the family. Anyways a few years of this abuse culminated in her trying to harm the family while my father was away. We're okay though! My two younger siblings are unaware that this happened, due to them being asleep in another room at the time and me keeping my stepmother away from the door. Anyways she got arrested blah blah and now, I'm in the eighth grade!
Middle school was pretty good, as all things go, for me. I got some real-ish friends, moved up in the music world, got five awards in musical achievement, and joined the school jazz band! Now, this is what led me to LOVE being onstage in an ensemble like that. I loved going to all different highschools and such and seeing so many different places and people. It really was wonderful. Amazing with all my friends with me in the band as well. If I could do it forever, I would. And I plan to for as long as I can. It was around this time I decided to get Discord, and met some WONDERFUL folks! They really got me through some hard times. I got quite depressed and maybe a bit suicidal around the beggining of highschool from the fallout of all that had happened (though I'm too much of a coward to ever attempt something all that serious lol) and those online friends really helped me stay positive. Thanks, if you're reading this!
Middle school came and went pretty quickly. It was a nice time, and I'm glad for it. Now, highschool. I continued with this music thing, joined the marching band, concert band, orchestra, and pit orchestra. Some friends came, some friends left, I'm still seeing what's going on. Life's been getting better! Around a year ago from writing this, my father, after divorcing my ex-stepmother has found a new girlfriend, and she is just GREAT. Very kind, and very, very loving. She's been such a nice ray of hope. And things are going well for me right now. I'm moving up in the world, musically, playing on some medium sized stages! Going to state events, participating in other groups, I'm happy.
And, that's my life as of current! Thanks for reading that wall of text!